No, I am not talking about the hit song from Disney's Frozen (cute movie by the way), but talking about trying to CONTROL it all!! Trying to make things happen, make everyone get along, having that neat tidy perfect life that you dream of, and only see it on those golden day TV re-runs. LOVE The Andy Griffith show!
Isn't it relieving that GOD does not ask us to be perfect? He accepts us for our faults and shortcomings. He loves us no matter what we have done in life or continue to do. We all fall short to the glory of GOD and are sinners (Romans 3:23). The only way we are perfect is in HIM! Dying to self, putting our dreams aside to live in reality and not miss the life that is happening right now in the moments. I have been caught in a TRAP that I should do this, and not do that. That I am not a Christian because I desire earthly things, to not live, "enjoy life" now because I am saving up for the future, for when my dreams are a reality. I was believing that this was all coming from the LORD. (The WORD tells us that: "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."-John 10:10) That is the truth! Jesus came so that we may live a life full of peace and abundance!
I was being deceived by the enemy! He knows my past and how to use it to distract me and draw me away from the LORD. I was so caught up in "this is it, it's going to happen, your time has come!" BUT, was I really serving the LORD? Was I being obedient to his word and calling? GOD knows the desires of my heart, and he keeps his promises. I do believe that one day my dreams will come true. Some already have! Being a mommy and to be able to stay home and raise my kids.
WOW! GOD is speaking to me and my heart! During this season of my "FROZEN" life, the bible verse Luke 16:10 popped up in so many places! I couldn't avoid it! It was on pinterest, fb posts, and daily devotions. So, being curious and thinking "here's your sign", I read the scripture and it pierced my heart:
Luke 16 10-12 10 “Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much. 11 So if you have not been trustworthy in handling worldly wealth, who will trust you with true riches? 12 And if you have not been trustworthy with someone else’s property, who will give you property of your own?"
How can GOD give me anymore when I haven't learned to live for the now. Don't get me wrong I am grateful for the LORD's blessings, I praise him and thank him. I was neglecting my responsibilities, and comparing myself to others, putting myself in grief and despair.
Oh what a blessing to have friends! I was hitting rock bottom, ready to give up...no life left in me. How do I know it's the LORD talking to me and not my own desires. Then one day, my answer came! A church friend who doesn't really know me, I have never opened up to her, calls me the same day I opened the Bible and asked GOD to lead me..."LORD, I am letting Go, lead me." Our visit was from the LORD. She called me and said, "The LORD placed it on my heart to call you today, he wants you to know that HIS heart is breaking for what breaks yours. This will pass. He wants me to pray for you." Yep, tears were flowing, my heart was opened and felt like a HUGE boulder was lifted off of my chest. How did SHE know what was going on, that I was in such a season of grief and confusion? The answer, GOD!! He knows his children, he will call them by name! He knows my pain, and wants to help me! "Take it, I am letting go!"
PRAISE GOD!! So, I'm not crazy! It is okay to dream and not give up on them. BUT, it is wrong to live for something that I am missing out on life now, and not truly asking HIM to lead me! I look as this season as my training field. Learning and growing, make mistakes but not live in the them.
Those moments of giving up, feeling like life is over, that your dreams will not come true because of "life" just not going the way you planned or hoped for,
remember this:
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
before you were born I set you apart;
I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” -Jeremiah 1:5
Live for TODAY, LOVE like tomorrow will never come, forgive and LET IT GO!!
Don't loose hope!
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Who needs the time out?? Kiddos or Mama?
Ahhhhhh!!! I could just scream and cry today!! After being gone two days for jury duty not to mention that there is so much on my to do list this day is NOT going how I planned. I started the day out in peace with Jesus. It is my favorite time of the day, next to when hubby arrives home! (love when we are together at night...and mama gets a break!) When I finished, I was ready for my next "me time" activity and then it all began. Both kiddos woke up grumpy, clingy, needy, hungry, wanting, EVERYTHING you could think of that could be annoying. The only thing they weren't was PATIENT, UNDERSTANDING, CALM, THANKFUL, and LOVING! Whoever figures out how to sew a child on to the mother's hip will make a killing!!!
In the midst of all of the frustration, anger and confusion because this is WHAT I prayed for, dreamed about and HOPED for, to be a Stay at Home Mom, I was feeling guilty, selfish and depressed. How can I be mad at my loves? They don't understand, they just want their mama. River of Tears was flowing through our home, bottom lips could have been tripped over. I HAD enough!!! THEN, a small still voice said "I am here. Let me help." At that time I said, "YES, please do Jesus, I need YOU!!" WOW!!! How incredible is that our LORD and SAVIOR is ALWAYS with us when we are grumpy, clingy, needy, hungry, wanting and un-forgiving. I threw my hands up in the air to praise and worship him! Took 15 minutes to be alone. To CRY. To re-focus on who I am, and who he is in me.
God is good. He uses daily situations that bring us back to focus...and that is on him. Children are young, growing, learning, can be annoying, rude, crude, etc, are ALSO children of HIM our father! How much as adults that we too can act like "children" and it never phases us! I had to re-evaluate my actions toward my loves and asked for HIS strength and forgiveness. I am NOT perfect, nor do I wish to be. I am GRATEFUL that he is here always, pointed out my flaws, gives me unconditional love and shows tender mercy.
What started out to be a day full of a million things to do, children who weren't cooperating, a day that seemed the devil himself directed...has BECOME a day of HOPE, FORGIVENESS, PEACE, and LOVE! For the word says that:
"A man’s heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps." -Proverbs 16:9
You know what is so WONDERFUL about this all? God knows my past, and my future!! He WILL and has never forsaken me! I prayed for happy and healthy babies. To be a stay at home mom. To be a christian mother who shows her children and family the love of Christ. To raise Godly children even when the temptation arises to GIVE up and GIVE in! I will GIVE, and that is to HIM! I will GIVE my heart, my mind, my weakness, and let him have it all!
The devil only knows my past and is afraid for his future, he is going to try everything and anything to keep me distracted and feeling overwhelmed. He can keep trying, and there will be times that I fall. However, I will not FAIL because "HE that is in me is greater than he that is in the world!" (1 John 4:4)
In the midst of all of the frustration, anger and confusion because this is WHAT I prayed for, dreamed about and HOPED for, to be a Stay at Home Mom, I was feeling guilty, selfish and depressed. How can I be mad at my loves? They don't understand, they just want their mama. River of Tears was flowing through our home, bottom lips could have been tripped over. I HAD enough!!! THEN, a small still voice said "I am here. Let me help." At that time I said, "YES, please do Jesus, I need YOU!!" WOW!!! How incredible is that our LORD and SAVIOR is ALWAYS with us when we are grumpy, clingy, needy, hungry, wanting and un-forgiving. I threw my hands up in the air to praise and worship him! Took 15 minutes to be alone. To CRY. To re-focus on who I am, and who he is in me.
God is good. He uses daily situations that bring us back to focus...and that is on him. Children are young, growing, learning, can be annoying, rude, crude, etc, are ALSO children of HIM our father! How much as adults that we too can act like "children" and it never phases us! I had to re-evaluate my actions toward my loves and asked for HIS strength and forgiveness. I am NOT perfect, nor do I wish to be. I am GRATEFUL that he is here always, pointed out my flaws, gives me unconditional love and shows tender mercy.
What started out to be a day full of a million things to do, children who weren't cooperating, a day that seemed the devil himself directed...has BECOME a day of HOPE, FORGIVENESS, PEACE, and LOVE! For the word says that:
"A man’s heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps." -Proverbs 16:9
The devil only knows my past and is afraid for his future, he is going to try everything and anything to keep me distracted and feeling overwhelmed. He can keep trying, and there will be times that I fall. However, I will not FAIL because "HE that is in me is greater than he that is in the world!" (1 John 4:4)
"You are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world."
From me to you Mama, my heart and prayers are with you on the days you are over whelmed, when little Susie is tormenting little Bobby, when piles of laundry are overflowing and have taken over the whole house, when you find yourself putting cereal in the fridge and milk in the cabinet because the night before you only got 4 hours of sleep due to Susie waking up screaming EVERY hour from a nightmare, I want you to remember these words:
"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
Cherish these moments now, show mercy and forgiveness always, and take a time out!
Don't Loose Hope!
Tuesday, March 4, 2014
You can do it!
Oh to hear those words! To be encouraged, to have our own personal cheerleader in our adult life. Remember as a younger kid when learning to ride a bike, with someone watching and cheering us on? To direct the steering wheel as we start to lean towards a side. To catch us before we coast down the hill loosing complete control as the pedals spin fast. Whether it was a parent, sibling, grandparent, neighbor, etc...there was someone there to help us. To give us words of praise, to encourage us not to give up, and to pick us up when we fell down.
Now, we have grown up. The person that was next to us while we were learning to ride a bike have let go of the steering wheel and given us total control. Choosing to steer left or right, splashing through mud puddles, coasting slow or cruising at fast pace.
On our own we are facing daily obstacles, struggles, challenges and sometimes disappointments. During those times we need to go back to the place of childhood and listen to the inner voice that is telling us "YOU CAN DO IT!" Don't give up, if you fall then pick yourself up and try again!
The beauty if this all is that we are not alone! When life starts to feel like you are way in over your head, that there is NO hope, that it would just be EASY to QUIT now...DON'T!!! Do NOT let your fears and disappointments take you away from your purpose and focus! "The enemy has came to kill, steal, and destroy. I have come so that you may live and have it abundantly." (John 10:10)
There is an inner desire in all of us, and to find it we need to search deep, find our focus, and ask for help! It will not be easy. There will be distractions, disappointments, heartbreak, trials, tears, frustration. So, now you're asking "Why should I put myself through all of those things, when I am comfortable with where I am? Even though I complain that I hate my job, I hate myself, I wish I could go here or there, I wish I had the money, I am so jealous, life is not fair, I guess I'm not lucky, and woe is me." EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES!!!! Let go of them!!! Don't fall into the trap that "I'm not good enough, or I don't deserve it, or I wasn't born with privileges."
I'm here to tell you, if you haven't heard your inner voice yet, "YOU CAN DO IT!!!" “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26) The impossible here is facing life alone, not calling on him or others to help you. The possible??? ANYTHING!! "Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4)
I challenge you to reach out of your comfort zone. To search deep and find your "drive" for life!
I promise you that you will not regret it. You will fall down, but you MUST get back up!!
Don't loose hope!
Now, we have grown up. The person that was next to us while we were learning to ride a bike have let go of the steering wheel and given us total control. Choosing to steer left or right, splashing through mud puddles, coasting slow or cruising at fast pace.
On our own we are facing daily obstacles, struggles, challenges and sometimes disappointments. During those times we need to go back to the place of childhood and listen to the inner voice that is telling us "YOU CAN DO IT!" Don't give up, if you fall then pick yourself up and try again!
The beauty if this all is that we are not alone! When life starts to feel like you are way in over your head, that there is NO hope, that it would just be EASY to QUIT now...DON'T!!! Do NOT let your fears and disappointments take you away from your purpose and focus! "The enemy has came to kill, steal, and destroy. I have come so that you may live and have it abundantly." (John 10:10)
There is an inner desire in all of us, and to find it we need to search deep, find our focus, and ask for help! It will not be easy. There will be distractions, disappointments, heartbreak, trials, tears, frustration. So, now you're asking "Why should I put myself through all of those things, when I am comfortable with where I am? Even though I complain that I hate my job, I hate myself, I wish I could go here or there, I wish I had the money, I am so jealous, life is not fair, I guess I'm not lucky, and woe is me." EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES!!!! Let go of them!!! Don't fall into the trap that "I'm not good enough, or I don't deserve it, or I wasn't born with privileges."
I'm here to tell you, if you haven't heard your inner voice yet, "YOU CAN DO IT!!!" “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” (Matthew 19:26) The impossible here is facing life alone, not calling on him or others to help you. The possible??? ANYTHING!! "Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4)
I challenge you to reach out of your comfort zone. To search deep and find your "drive" for life!
I promise you that you will not regret it. You will fall down, but you MUST get back up!!
Don't loose hope!
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